Dear Mom & Dad...

Miss the time’s when hearing a horror story would ruin my sleep and would come back to me after being engulfed in a warm hug by mom or dad. I would always wonder how my parents could have the courage to walk up in a dark room and search for the light switch at the same time seeming totally unaffected by the dark room…
Love recalling moments whenever my parents would shower me with presents bought from my favorite toy shop at Clifton – Karachi on occasions like birthdays, getting promoted to next class in school, winning a race on sports day and similar small but sweet moments to celebrate.
Time went by and I went to college… that’s when life slightly took a turn and I started worrying about the way I look, my dressing and most of all the opposite sex! Dear mom… I’ll always be thankful to her for the support she offered and assurity she gave that no matter what others may say or think, I would be the most beautiful creature in her eyes. I laugh at the times when my dad would fuss over a guy friend being too friendly or appearing too much in my conversations over dinner every day  I love you dad for all that you did to keep me away from the “bad boys” and building up my self confidence
Started working with a well reputed bank on a contractual position and still remember my parents proudly showing off their daughter’s achievement in front of their friends and relatives… Such moments are just too precious to forget and at the same time such instances have incurred in my life so many times to write down in this blog and I would still have many moments to quote. As my professional life started to bloom I held a permanent position in my parent’s daily conversation with their friends, each time ensuring that people knew exactly where I was working and under what position to the point that I would laugh embarrassingly at my parents at times but they wouldn’t care.
Falling seriously in love and then having my heart broken badly has been a terrible phase of my life but just couldn’t help but move on and start living again thanks to the support and backup of these two lovely people I am writing about here. I have learned a lot about life at an early age and the one thing I would like to say here (even though I would NEVER admit in front of THEM) is that “Parents are always right” – (at least in my case this has been very well proven)
There is absolutely NO way of repaying back one’s parents except for loving them back equally as much and being grateful and thankful for being blessed with such wonderful people to be called mom and dad.
Mom & Dad,
I can’t find any way to more directly say what I have never said so before (probably because I thought that inside you guys might always know for yourselves) that I love you guys. Thanks for being what you are…
Luv,
Your only daughter *muah*

19th March - 11:46 PM

Most of the day was spent working and some of it was spent merely staring at those never ending customer profiles. I feel like a bum these days... there is so much I plan to do yet im just being plain lazy at implementing the same. A good freind is back in Karachi so kinda looking forward to catching up with her. Other then this peice of news there is absolutely nothing exciting going on in my life. Have this awesome idea for a portfolio :)but im gonna refrain from sharing it here until I am done with it (Keeping my latest lazy bones record)

Have a long weekend coming upthanks to the public Holiday for the 23rd of March, I intend to spent 70% of it with Family and the rest hanging out with friends and doing some fun stuff together. I seriously feel I need a vacation... All I have in mind is a white sand beach, my self wearing a long floral printed skirt with a simple white tank top and flat funky sandals working on an oil painting at the beach... then ultimately lying on the beach and having my back massaged... *Sigh* wont that be awesome? Ofcourse in my dream im staying at an utterly expensive hotel with unlimited amount of money to spend on shopping and having absolutely NO worries in this friggen world!!!

God this is so tempting... I seriously need to hit the beach someday. Hmmm...Oh well im supposed to meet a couple of school freinds tomorrow for lunch so that is kinda keeping me motivated for tomorrow :)

18th March - 11:20 PM

I was just going through my previous posts in this blog and my attempted poetry published on the night of 14th February caught my eye which made me wonder about people involved or WANTING to be involved in romantic relationships...

Let's c now... a BASE of a good, healthy and strong relationship is TRUST and SINCERITY right? What if that get's a bit shaken? Is it really easy to win that trust again or for that matter to START trusting the one at fault again? Can a relationship where possesiveness, suspicion and jealousy exist really last long enough? Honestly, I have seen men and women who are constantly on the toes of their better half as they just cant be too sure whether they are truly comitted to them or not. In my opinion such relations just shouldnt exist. Practically speaking, if something which gives an impression of freedom dying is detected even BEFORE something has been started should not even be given a second thought about further possibilites.

Sometime's I wonder why cant things be so much more simpler? Why do people cheat? And even if they DO then why cant they just walk up to their current partner and tell him or her staright off that things just aint gonna work anymore? Wouldnt it be so much better that way? The innocent get's to decide what to do with life and the DEVIL gets to save him or herself embarassment of being caught! In my opinion TALKING really helps which every one would AGREE on doing but would never actually DO! Why do people wait for something to happen? What about possesiveness and assumptions you ask? My friends, I dont even wanna START on that piece... Am going to end this by saying that good communication, positive thinking and honesty always help streghten ANY kind of a relationship.

Regards,

Your own LUV GURU in the making ;)

8th March 2009 - 11:57 PM

Wow… what a week…
I suppose this to some this might give an image as if I have been flying back and forth between Hollywood and Pakistan but that is not the case here. The last two weeks (Please ignore my starting line of this post saying “What a week” – TWO Weeks would have sounded a bit tacky no?) that passed by have been enough to give me a mental stress to last a year (At the least)
I personally am not in favor of quoting individual’s names in my writing piece therefore would just disclose minor relevant details of the weeks that passed by.
For starters I would say that my already negative mind regarding MEN who ask me out was refreshed and now the definition I had for HATE for such men was initially replaced by DISGUST, followed by INDIFFERENCE… There is a very famous, my personal favorite, a very well formatted and true quote which is: “What goes around, comes around” – So basically I am not going waste time and energy to formulize some dramatic plot to feel happiness derived through insulting or being simply bitchy with anyone. I have better options anyways so that it that. Good will come across my way itself so why fuss running after it? Everything has a time and place so let’s leave this little issue in the hands of God.
Work has been extremely weird… I am currently handling two areas out of which I still have no idea exactly who I am supposed to report to based on which there is a lot of confusion, irritability and annoyance. Let’s not forget to mention the fact that the same has been causing an impact on my work efficiency and I personally feel that I am turning into some kind of a lazy hag at work. All I seem to be doing lately is staring at the screen and MIS’s without actually DOING anything and believe me that kind of a feeling is NOT RIGHT!!! Oh well anyway, Tomorrow is Monday and technically a NEW beginning (I know sounds pretty corny but what the heck I am just trying to motivate myself to for work tomorrow!) so I am going to start by giving a reasonably good shot (Yes it’s not gonna be my best :P)
Another pretty cool discovery is that there are actually a couple of people I THOUGHT and ASSUMED on my own that were not worthy of being friends with are actually very nice and sensible people followed by those who were taken and accepted as friends turned out to be freaks – GOD I HATE MYSELF!!!
Now going through this entire post I feel like an idiot for writing this down and actually publishing this on my blog but I’m still going to publish this anyway based on the following two only reasons:
• Maybe someone who comes across this little (Not quite I know) entry of mine might gain SOME kind of a learning experience from this or might just have a good laugh – Oh what the heck I don’t care anyways!
• Lastly I DID NOT waste my 15 friggen minutes to merely deleting the same after doing so!

And oh Yeah... Happy Women's day!! Sheesh!

Cheers - Unhappy Annie!