Watchout for Super Woman

Based on my current state of mind I decided to be all goodie two shoes and set out to change the world. The first step to initiate the same was to change AK the person herself (The worst of em all!!) Khair it's all very simple really though requires a hell lot of will power. For starters I started moving around at work with a polite - though not so freindly smile on my face. Had to force my self to laugh at all the stupid idiotic jokes and praise all the girls in the washroom when they flaunt a new shirt or a hairdo (Okhay so i exaggerated a bit I didnt quite "Praise" anyone - I just sort of nodded when Sara asked "Oh isnt she looking pretty QK?")
I beleive the BAH HUMBUGNESS has started showing on my face so AK is all about SMILES these days (Gag me with a spoon!)

Anyways, having implemented that I focused on number 2 which was to show even more efficiency then usual at work which I always find motivating for my self as I get to learn new stuff. As a result today I was handed out data extraction, validation, review, respond and closure of THREE AML REPORTS (Yikes!) which got me a bit taken aback at first but then I was like kay what the heck! This is what I wanted didnt I? So that too went successful.

Number three is the change in the way I dress up (Argh!) Required LOADS of Amma's help on that... Well I havent quite implemented this piece as yet ... ermm... I mean 85% of what I wear is sleeveless, office formal shirts and dress pants!!! I mean look at today for example - I made an entrance wearing a nice shalwaar kameez with a very graceful dupatta and almost every girl at work including some men asked "How come from a boy to square one?" Urgh.. ReeellllAAX people give a person a break here ok? You cant blame a person for atleast trying (I have to admit the traditional look didnt quite fit with the short red streaked hair :P) but im trying to grow my hair longer too :( )

Number four is that I have been working out quite regularly so all is in good shape ;)

Number five is to prepare for the aptitude test for CBM's executive MBA programme - So far all the information has been gathered and I HAVE started preparing for the apptitude test which is on the 14th of June 2009 ... sort (Gulp)But this is not the only problem here... My latest theory of "DOING WHAT YOUR HEART DESIRES" kind of contradicts my doing MBA as inside I know I want to do my Masters in English Literature. Now I know that if I try discussing this with a few freinds who ALSO read this bloggie of mine will probably roll their eyes at me and throw daggers at me if i even THINK backing out from giving the aptitude test [:(]

Number 6 is to do more and spend more for the community rather then myself (For starters I have volounteered to help out Barclay's Corporate affairs team in all the programmes they are organizing which includes a BIG FUND RAISING EVENT for the people who have been badly affected due to the military operations in SWAT (HOW I feel about this situation should better be posted in a fresh post altogether cos that peive i intend to make a lil serious)

MOST important is to give more time to my family and build up my relationship with Allah Mian (Progress so far :))

Oh oh and did I tell you guys that Im posting this from work? :D How's that for mutil taksing ;)

Regards,

Highly BUSY + MOTIVATED AK (h)

AK's latest perspective!

Sometimes I wonder how an individual meets with complications in life? When God made this world didnt he make things very simple and easy for us? If I look around me and start counting how much I have been given by Allah I can find uncountable things starting from my health to wealth to family to freinds to EVERYTHING and to the point where if i compare the same with what i currently DONT have I see my self as an ungrateful brat and un necessarily ruining my mental state of mind.

Let's see now... In our country a person who eats stuff like Daal or Subzee which is in expensive as compared to stuff like chicken or beef is considered from the lower "Class". The question is that when God created all the eatables for us did he have the same concept in mind? Does it really makes a difference with what we eat? Shouldnt the main idea be to satisfy one's stomach?

Wearing SILK or CHIFFON is BEAUTIFUL whereas wearing plain COTTON is not? What if somebody is HAPPY wearing a certain material which is in expensive? Should this be used as a medium to judge a person's wealth? And what is thing called money? A billionare lives on food and wears cloths to cover himself up and travels through a Car - probably on a Merc - At the same time a person with low income also lives on food, wears cloths to cover himself up and travels through a car (A bus or some other similar medium) ... The question is what is the difference here? Arent both the people serving the same purpose?

For once if a person STOPS pondering over what to drive, eat or wear and keeps one thing in mind that we all have to eventually leave this world wouldnt it resolve a lot many problems and give us inner satisfaction? Shouldnt we rather concentrate on being better human beings? If I have a billion RS in my account and drive a Ferrari what good it be for me uif I die instantly and realise that I have never been kind to people around me and spent most of my life being mean to people who actually loved me or pushing down a good coleague to get a promotion at work?

Even as I write this I dont know if I really know what the true meaning of life is... But I am soon to discover as I think I have found a new passage which I know leads me to ExACTLY where I want to be someday ...

28th April 2009 - Tuesday (8:53 PM)

One of those times when I really feel like writing but dont have anything specefic in mind to share my views on...

I just feel like listening to loads of music, messing up my self with paint while working on a canvas, eating tons of dark minty chocolate, humming to my self and feeling outrageously free from everything...

Today...

Making good and sensible decisions in life is always very difficult. Like today for example... I hate my self for being COAXED into making a decision which makes me feel like a pushover BUT i am VERY NOT happy... however, I would like to state that I am relieved and not exactly relaxed but ... OKHAY...let's just say im alright with what has happened.

Once again I would say... I LOVE YOU GOD for ALWAYS making things work out for me. YOU ARE THE BEST! *hugs*

A Thought On Racism...

The most general idea people get when one talk's or hear's about Racism is White's and Black's against each other but have we forgotten the actual reason behind Racism??

Before I start on what made me think about Racism let's check out this definition I found on Wikepedia about Racism:

"Racism, by its simplest definition is the belief that race is the primary determinant of human traits and capacities and that racial differences produce an inherent superiority of a particular race.[1] People with racist beliefs exhibit stereotype-based prejudices towards individuals and groups of people according to their race. In the case of institutional racism, certain racial groups may be denied rights or benefits, or get preferential treatment. Racial discrimination typically points out taxonomic differences between different groups of people, even though anybody can be racialised, independently of their somatic differences. According to the United Nations conventions, there is no distinction between the term racial discrimination and ethnic discrimination. Racism is the belief that a particular race is superior or inferior to another,that a person's social and moral traits are predetermined by his or her inborn biological characteristics"

Pakistan is supposed to be a country whereby everyone is and was (at the time of creation) expected to give equal rights to every individual living here...

Im not gonna write much except the fact that how do we explain the differences people have developed in their minds about people who are Punjabi's, Balouchi's, Sindhi's, Pathan's, Urdu Speaking, Bohree, Gujrati etc etc... Why are people from all these backgrounds constantly bitching about people from other communities? Where DID this entire concept of communities developed from? I cant seem to remember any verse in the Holy Quran differentiating people through such traits based on langvage and culture! Why is it considered to be such a problem to mingle or add a member from the "Other" community in a family relation? Are we really setting an example as an independant nation here? Are we setting an example of equality, peace and brotherhood? How do we explain the Shia / Sunni feuds? What are we getting out of all this exactly?

The sad thing is that this kind of an attitude I got to see from people coming from educated backgrounds and people who are generally good at heart but due to the so called burden from society and their family backgrounds / pressure from parents are always hesitant to say anything against it.

All I feel like saying is... GROW UP PEOPLE!!!

Speechless...

Current state of mind...

"Im Happy... No sad...No nostalgic...No Hurt...No confused..."

Tonight I have lost something that was very dear and close to heart... with whome I had several sweet memories that gave me reasons to smile just like that... Seriously... All I feel inside is just empty.

But im Happy too...

Annie's Weekend Updates - The Cow, Dad's Birthday & My Grumpy State of Mind :@

So my weekend started with a crazy cow running on the main road...

There I was dressed in my fave pair of hipsters with a T Shirt and on my way to work on a Saturday (Which happen's to be a half day so "Yippe!"). It was somewhere around 10:15 in the morning and I was engrossed in observing people around me while listening to Ricky Martin and having breakfast in car as usual while my driver fought his was through the traffic to make sure I reached work on time. Khair, we were nearing the signal at Sheraton and that is where I noticed a Huge thing creating havoc in the traffic. What I saw was a poor sweet looking and terribly confused brown coloured cow running on the centre of the road all alone without knowing where it was supposed to go... Okhaay!! I'll admit that the moment I saw the cow running I felt like laughing my Ass off but being an animal lover by nature I instantly noticed that the poor animal was totally confused and lost. It was so scared of all the traffic around that it kept on running and ultimately disapeared somewhere behind PC. The saddest part was that no one was able to control the poor animal and God knows what became of it... (It's weird really but it's been two days and im still thinking about the cow... :S)

Anyways... Sunday was Dad's birthday so me, bro and mom decided to surprise dad by decorating the drawing room with balloons and birthday caps and candles and all the stuff a "2" year old would enjoy on his birthday for dear dad :D which actually turned out to be fun (This "Surprise" was given on Saturday night). We were later thanked by being taken out for dinner on Sunday for Chinese ;).

Today being a Monday was no better then the previous working Monday's of my life :@ . I feel so grumpy at work these days... I have started idealizing Homer Simpson... seriously...